My highest aspirations are as high as the sun,
I may not be able to reach them...
but I can gaze upon them and be happy in their warmth.
It's been a while guys and for that I am sorry. But...I'm trying to break the bonds of he cyber-police that hold me soon...
Tuesday, 1 December 2009
Friday, 30 October 2009
If it makes you happy...
Then everything is alright!
I am in a good mood today. Not just because it's Friday and my week is nearly done. This is not the usual: I hate where I am BLOG you may have become used to! I think I'm in a good mood today for little reasons. Some of which I will share with you here...
Yesterday, I got home to find my little sister and her 2 daughters at my house (unfortunately my brother-in-law has Swine Flu - Get well soon Stev!). Now, this happens quite regularly. But last night I enjoyed it immensely. Abigail was all smiles and giggles as always and Olivia sat on my knee and we went on YouTube and watched the Dell advert (Lollipop, Lollipop...). She loved it and when I started singing along she was just looking at me smiling. It was really nice. Those times are great and put things in perspective a lot.
I also have a new found friendship with someone at work who is really cool and I think we're getting to be good friends. Another bonus.
Having my little brother at home is quality too. The banter is second to none...I think we'll win the 'Christmas Couples Competition' (say that when you're drunk) at the house AGAIN this year!
One more thing I'd like to say is making me happy is that my Big Brother is in gainful employment again. Shift-work is a down-side but I've seen a change in him since the job. He's happier. if we can't take our joy from someone else's what can we get it from?!
I'd just like to give a big shout out to my Family and Friends. I've not been BLOGGING a lot recently and I've missed it. I hope you have too in a selfish way.
But let me leave you with a request: Share on the comments section somethings that make you happy. Please remember: No matter how small, if it makes you happy it's HUGE!
Have a good weekend everyone.
I am in a good mood today. Not just because it's Friday and my week is nearly done. This is not the usual: I hate where I am BLOG you may have become used to! I think I'm in a good mood today for little reasons. Some of which I will share with you here...
Yesterday, I got home to find my little sister and her 2 daughters at my house (unfortunately my brother-in-law has Swine Flu - Get well soon Stev!). Now, this happens quite regularly. But last night I enjoyed it immensely. Abigail was all smiles and giggles as always and Olivia sat on my knee and we went on YouTube and watched the Dell advert (Lollipop, Lollipop...). She loved it and when I started singing along she was just looking at me smiling. It was really nice. Those times are great and put things in perspective a lot.
I also have a new found friendship with someone at work who is really cool and I think we're getting to be good friends. Another bonus.
Having my little brother at home is quality too. The banter is second to none...I think we'll win the 'Christmas Couples Competition' (say that when you're drunk) at the house AGAIN this year!
One more thing I'd like to say is making me happy is that my Big Brother is in gainful employment again. Shift-work is a down-side but I've seen a change in him since the job. He's happier. if we can't take our joy from someone else's what can we get it from?!
I'd just like to give a big shout out to my Family and Friends. I've not been BLOGGING a lot recently and I've missed it. I hope you have too in a selfish way.
But let me leave you with a request: Share on the comments section somethings that make you happy. Please remember: No matter how small, if it makes you happy it's HUGE!
Have a good weekend everyone.
Friday, 23 October 2009
Oh my GOD!
It's been over a week since my last BLOG! This is quite frankly, un-acceptable! So I am taking a well earned break from the manual labour I have been engaged in to write a little something...
I've been trying very hard recently to focus on other people and try an help them in the way they help me without knowing it. Be it moral support, words of advice, a lift here and there. The usual matey stuff that seems insignificant but I know means a lot even if it's only a little.
In doing this I have discovered a few things about the people I have tried to help. They all react differently. To some it as amazing. "This person (me) is willing to do the little things that help...and boy, do they help!" Others have taken advice and it's not panned out so graciously thank and try to deal with repercussions and their feelings alone. The ones...or one in actual fact that has troubled me is the one about whom I am going to write.
The worst feeling I have experienced recently is close to rejection really. Nothing as major or defined as that though. Have you ever tried to do anything for someone you care a great deal about and been ignored? Have you ever dropped everything and gone to them because they asked? Have you ever been left to the side because something or someone else has come along? Have you ever felt second best ALL of the time?
This person has made me feel like that...on many occasions. I've vowed a few times now (one of my readers can vouch for that) to forget it. Leave this person to their own devices...I struggle to be honest. But now I feel like a fool. I've still tried recently. I'm concerned about the person...I offer help, I offer company...I get no response or a simple: "Thanks."
I don't know what to do with it anymore and advice is welcome from any of you. Even you who know about which I speak...even if it's the same advice I've heard before!
Randomness in my BLOGs remains. But at least I got a chance to do one.
Guys, I've missed you even if you haven't missed me. It's good to get it out. Have a great weekend...even if you have to work!
I've been trying very hard recently to focus on other people and try an help them in the way they help me without knowing it. Be it moral support, words of advice, a lift here and there. The usual matey stuff that seems insignificant but I know means a lot even if it's only a little.
In doing this I have discovered a few things about the people I have tried to help. They all react differently. To some it as amazing. "This person (me) is willing to do the little things that help...and boy, do they help!" Others have taken advice and it's not panned out so graciously thank and try to deal with repercussions and their feelings alone. The ones...or one in actual fact that has troubled me is the one about whom I am going to write.
The worst feeling I have experienced recently is close to rejection really. Nothing as major or defined as that though. Have you ever tried to do anything for someone you care a great deal about and been ignored? Have you ever dropped everything and gone to them because they asked? Have you ever been left to the side because something or someone else has come along? Have you ever felt second best ALL of the time?
This person has made me feel like that...on many occasions. I've vowed a few times now (one of my readers can vouch for that) to forget it. Leave this person to their own devices...I struggle to be honest. But now I feel like a fool. I've still tried recently. I'm concerned about the person...I offer help, I offer company...I get no response or a simple: "Thanks."
I don't know what to do with it anymore and advice is welcome from any of you. Even you who know about which I speak...even if it's the same advice I've heard before!
Randomness in my BLOGs remains. But at least I got a chance to do one.
Guys, I've missed you even if you haven't missed me. It's good to get it out. Have a great weekend...even if you have to work!
Wednesday, 14 October 2009
Ideas of home...
I found this somehow on Google. I forget what it was I initially searched for. This little statement troubled me because it set me apart from everyone else (aparently).
You see, I have a wonderful home. In fact I have many places I could call home and for that i am greatful. I don't think there is anything could phase me in one of these places.
I guess what I'm trying to say is: I don't think home eludes us (even if we are taking this home to mean heaven). I think it is well in grasp if we take it and seize it. They say home is where the heart is...Therefore my home is wherever I find one of you I call friend.
Tuesday, 13 October 2009
sticking it to the man
Well Guys, this is a risk. It could land me in proper trouble at work...so I believe.
What is life without risks though? Boring and Mundane I'd wager. I also pose to you a question which I would like you to feel free to answer in the comments if you will...
Is it possible for 'the man' tp monitor thousands of PCs and IP addresses and e-mail acount in one go and prove fruitful in their quest?
I'm hoping not...for if I have not this I have not my mind.
I'm looking forward to the chase. Will it be the end of me? Will I continue un-hindered in my quest to vent, entertain, challenge? Will I be here in one piece sitting at my desk writing once a day about the things that fill my mind? I hope so. I mean, it's not like I don't work my arse off and it's not like I actually take any of my breaks! This is MY quest, MY forum, and MY friends (and maybe some strangers) read this to keep up with me. I missed one day due to 'the man'...
Now I say: STICK IT!
What is life without risks though? Boring and Mundane I'd wager. I also pose to you a question which I would like you to feel free to answer in the comments if you will...
Is it possible for 'the man' tp monitor thousands of PCs and IP addresses and e-mail acount in one go and prove fruitful in their quest?
I'm hoping not...for if I have not this I have not my mind.
I'm looking forward to the chase. Will it be the end of me? Will I continue un-hindered in my quest to vent, entertain, challenge? Will I be here in one piece sitting at my desk writing once a day about the things that fill my mind? I hope so. I mean, it's not like I don't work my arse off and it's not like I actually take any of my breaks! This is MY quest, MY forum, and MY friends (and maybe some strangers) read this to keep up with me. I missed one day due to 'the man'...
Now I say: STICK IT!
Friday, 9 October 2009
Impressions and Opinions
Some people do NOT make a good impression. They INSTANTLY get your back up. It's no coincidence that they tend to be the people who like to thrust their opinions on you...as if you give a shit about what they think!
It was today when I was browsing my facebook that a 'colleague' of mine changed his staus to speak of Barrack Obama and his Nobel Prize. Personally I couldn't give 2 shits who won it and therefore I don't care what you think! However, this person is known for doing this. His status updates are more political than conversational (one of my readers has had...words with this person previously). He rubs people the wrong way with his self-satisfied holier than thou attitude and couple this with the smug smile he puts on all of the time and you've found yourself an arse.
Now, I know this BLOG might seem quite...hypocritical. But at least you don't HAVE to read this. As I have said before it gets my thoughts out..before I hurt someone usually! Facebook status about what the most powerful man in the world has or hasn't done, does and does not deserve...well you are MAKING me read them. They appear in my news feed. It's almost as if they want to spark a thought in my mind and for me to join them in their quest! I have something to say about this. A point to this statement of un-happiness...and here it is:
If you think you're more intelligent, tactical, important, or more worthy of a Nobel Peace Prize 2009...why didn't YOU win it?! Guys and Girls, thank you for reading. Somehow this makes me happier and I hope I don't bore or annoy you too much. You darling people are among those who DON'T make me feel like this and for that I will be eternally grateful!
Have you ever noticed how FUNNY chat-up lines are?! Does anyone actually use them?! Discuss!
It was today when I was browsing my facebook that a 'colleague' of mine changed his staus to speak of Barrack Obama and his Nobel Prize. Personally I couldn't give 2 shits who won it and therefore I don't care what you think! However, this person is known for doing this. His status updates are more political than conversational (one of my readers has had...words with this person previously). He rubs people the wrong way with his self-satisfied holier than thou attitude and couple this with the smug smile he puts on all of the time and you've found yourself an arse.
Now, I know this BLOG might seem quite...hypocritical. But at least you don't HAVE to read this. As I have said before it gets my thoughts out..before I hurt someone usually! Facebook status about what the most powerful man in the world has or hasn't done, does and does not deserve...well you are MAKING me read them. They appear in my news feed. It's almost as if they want to spark a thought in my mind and for me to join them in their quest! I have something to say about this. A point to this statement of un-happiness...and here it is:
If you think you're more intelligent, tactical, important, or more worthy of a Nobel Peace Prize 2009...why didn't YOU win it?! Guys and Girls, thank you for reading. Somehow this makes me happier and I hope I don't bore or annoy you too much. You darling people are among those who DON'T make me feel like this and for that I will be eternally grateful!
Have you ever noticed how FUNNY chat-up lines are?! Does anyone actually use them?! Discuss!
Thursday, 8 October 2009
Challenges
Today will be a short entry. I've been typing all day at work and my hurt. But...I could NOT leave it without an entry.
We are met in life by many challenges. How we deal with these challenges shapes the outcome. Face them head on and your strength and will power flourish in other aspects of your life. Shy away from the challenge and find yourself being a push over or being used by those around you. I would say being in the middle of the 2 is a great place to be.
Be scared by what life throws at you. It can be VERY daunting to see what you face. But, take a breathe. Get your head around the challenge before you turn to face it. Walk forward with your head held high and say: I can get through this. With help, I'm stronger than any problem you throw at me.
Take your challenges guys. Use them as stepping stones!
We are met in life by many challenges. How we deal with these challenges shapes the outcome. Face them head on and your strength and will power flourish in other aspects of your life. Shy away from the challenge and find yourself being a push over or being used by those around you. I would say being in the middle of the 2 is a great place to be.
Be scared by what life throws at you. It can be VERY daunting to see what you face. But, take a breathe. Get your head around the challenge before you turn to face it. Walk forward with your head held high and say: I can get through this. With help, I'm stronger than any problem you throw at me.
Take your challenges guys. Use them as stepping stones!
Wednesday, 7 October 2009
Methods of Stress Release...
Before we go any further expell all dirty and sordid ideas from your minds!
Done? Then I'll begin.
Do you remember being a child? All those years ago without a care in the world except what you may want/need. Simpler times. As you go through childhood and into young adulthood you start to aim your life towards the destination you wish to reach (or at least this is the idea) and you think that NOTHING is going to get in your way...until it does!
I, for example, wanted to be a fighter pilot in the RAF...pesky asthma got in the way of that! My point is it was my fantastical job idea. My goal. We all have our goals in life be they career minded or family orientated and we should try not to forget what we wished to be as children.
However, we can VERY easily lose sight of what we sought as a child. We let this world of ours, the world that turns no matter what happens to us in our seemingly small lives, dictate where we go. If you think about the journey you have taken to your current position in life and you're not happy with any waspect (even if you're ridiculously happy with the rest of it) you can become a slave to stress.
So, as the title suggests I have a suggestion to help aleviate some of the stress we find ourselves in. there are a few things I like to do:
Done? Then I'll begin.
Do you remember being a child? All those years ago without a care in the world except what you may want/need. Simpler times. As you go through childhood and into young adulthood you start to aim your life towards the destination you wish to reach (or at least this is the idea) and you think that NOTHING is going to get in your way...until it does!
I, for example, wanted to be a fighter pilot in the RAF...pesky asthma got in the way of that! My point is it was my fantastical job idea. My goal. We all have our goals in life be they career minded or family orientated and we should try not to forget what we wished to be as children.
However, we can VERY easily lose sight of what we sought as a child. We let this world of ours, the world that turns no matter what happens to us in our seemingly small lives, dictate where we go. If you think about the journey you have taken to your current position in life and you're not happy with any waspect (even if you're ridiculously happy with the rest of it) you can become a slave to stress.
So, as the title suggests I have a suggestion to help aleviate some of the stress we find ourselves in. there are a few things I like to do:
- Hit the punch bag
- destroy things...SO much fun it hurts!
- play my guitar and sing
- vent to my BLOG!
These are my adult stress releases. I'm sure we all have them. I have had another idea though. Let's revert to our child. The one Doctors refer to as 'your inner-child'. The idea is simple:
Play. Play with trians, play with cars, play with dolls for all I care! Don't look on it as a bad thing to want to simply play. Let go of the way you are expected to be and do what makes you happy! Even if it's not playing...I don't know: Paint by numbers! ESCAPE! And watch your stress drift away in your laughter.
Tuesday, 6 October 2009
Bar Room Psychology
Pschology is a noun that means: 'The science of mind and behaviour'
I think we are all Psychologists in one way or another. We change our behaviours to mirror that of our peers, we even use our skills of listening and talking to help our friends through difficult times and complex feelings.
I think the place we best do this is in the Pub. Have you notice how your words and feelings flow a little better with a shared pint with a friend - I use the work friend and not mate here on purpose. You see, I think there are differences in the 2. I wouldn't trust my mates with things I would trust my Friends with. - we often reach out in the pub. It's safer here as you can change the subject quickly and dance between serious and jovial to make he conversation easier to digest or cope with.
The reason I speak of this is that yesterday I was engaged in such an experience. Not even directly so to speak. I just know that after a day in the presence of 2 of my closest guys I felt, no I feel a lot better about things at the minute. An up-lifting experience of openness and opportunity was had and I hope the boys enjoyed it as much as I did!
I think we are all Psychologists in one way or another. We change our behaviours to mirror that of our peers, we even use our skills of listening and talking to help our friends through difficult times and complex feelings.
I think the place we best do this is in the Pub. Have you notice how your words and feelings flow a little better with a shared pint with a friend - I use the work friend and not mate here on purpose. You see, I think there are differences in the 2. I wouldn't trust my mates with things I would trust my Friends with. - we often reach out in the pub. It's safer here as you can change the subject quickly and dance between serious and jovial to make he conversation easier to digest or cope with.
The reason I speak of this is that yesterday I was engaged in such an experience. Not even directly so to speak. I just know that after a day in the presence of 2 of my closest guys I felt, no I feel a lot better about things at the minute. An up-lifting experience of openness and opportunity was had and I hope the boys enjoyed it as much as I did!
Friday, 2 October 2009
The 3 B's
I have discovered something AMAZING! The 3 B's. Have you ever been SO tired you could cry? So stressed you could scream, and in so much of a whirlwind emotionally you think you might drown?!
I have a CURE! This is all you need:
A Bath, a Beer, and a good Book.
Seriously, after footy last ngith (which was quality) I was knackered so...I 'drew' a bath (I love that phrase), popped open a beer and grabbed a book. I lay there and became COMPLETELY relaxed. I got out feeling refreshed, invigorated, and ready for the weekend! My issues, tiredness, and aches were washed away. Perfect.
So, I encourage you to try it. If you're not a Beer fan find your own replacement. Let's refer to it as a Bottle. You chose!
Happy Times people! Love it!
I have a CURE! This is all you need:
A Bath, a Beer, and a good Book.
Seriously, after footy last ngith (which was quality) I was knackered so...I 'drew' a bath (I love that phrase), popped open a beer and grabbed a book. I lay there and became COMPLETELY relaxed. I got out feeling refreshed, invigorated, and ready for the weekend! My issues, tiredness, and aches were washed away. Perfect.
So, I encourage you to try it. If you're not a Beer fan find your own replacement. Let's refer to it as a Bottle. You chose!
Happy Times people! Love it!
Sweet dreams are made of this...
If you're a friend of mine on facebook you will have seen that this morning my status was about the crazy dreams I've been having lately. I just wanted to tell you about 2 of them. One is kinda funny...the other...is bizarre!
The first one was around money and the lottery. I dreamt that one day at work a friend of mine ehre came up to me, kissed me on the cheek and handed me a winning lottery ticket saying: I just don't want this, you have it! So I took it and wiped out the debt (inc mortgages) of all of my 'family' (those of you in the family will know who you are and why it's in speech-marks). I then went on to build a chapel at the Briars, and buy Kev a car!
The 2nd is a little longer and SO random it's un-true! here goes:
It starts with me doing a night-prayer on St Peter's Square in Rome with this years 'seniors' on the Pilgrimage to Rome. We stand in a circle and pray that all we wish comes to fruition as per God's plan. It then cuts to New Years Day and the 'Audience with the Pope' Mass. As Benedict was processing down the aisle He stopped and turned to me (speaking in perfect English) and said: My son, why do you pray so hard? I told him it was my constant prayer that my Ministry in San Francisco coulod start and that my Visa comes quickly. He then invited me on the Sanctuaryu and asked me to lead the congregation in Prayer. So I did.
As we were processing back down the aisle he whispered to me and then to the Swiss Guard nearest who took myself, Msgr Mike, and the seniors to the Papal Apartments where we ATE with the Pope and then he called President Obama...ABOUT ME! I then spoke with Barack (we're obviously on first name terms by now) and he arranged for my passport (not my visa...he went straight for Citizenship) to be taken to my house for me to provide a photo. So obviously I did this and then I was free to come and go (and work) in America freely. He also paid for everything and cleared everyone in my 'familys' mortgages and debts.
I told you...MENTAL!
More to come later...
The first one was around money and the lottery. I dreamt that one day at work a friend of mine ehre came up to me, kissed me on the cheek and handed me a winning lottery ticket saying: I just don't want this, you have it! So I took it and wiped out the debt (inc mortgages) of all of my 'family' (those of you in the family will know who you are and why it's in speech-marks). I then went on to build a chapel at the Briars, and buy Kev a car!
The 2nd is a little longer and SO random it's un-true! here goes:
It starts with me doing a night-prayer on St Peter's Square in Rome with this years 'seniors' on the Pilgrimage to Rome. We stand in a circle and pray that all we wish comes to fruition as per God's plan. It then cuts to New Years Day and the 'Audience with the Pope' Mass. As Benedict was processing down the aisle He stopped and turned to me (speaking in perfect English) and said: My son, why do you pray so hard? I told him it was my constant prayer that my Ministry in San Francisco coulod start and that my Visa comes quickly. He then invited me on the Sanctuaryu and asked me to lead the congregation in Prayer. So I did.
As we were processing back down the aisle he whispered to me and then to the Swiss Guard nearest who took myself, Msgr Mike, and the seniors to the Papal Apartments where we ATE with the Pope and then he called President Obama...ABOUT ME! I then spoke with Barack (we're obviously on first name terms by now) and he arranged for my passport (not my visa...he went straight for Citizenship) to be taken to my house for me to provide a photo. So obviously I did this and then I was free to come and go (and work) in America freely. He also paid for everything and cleared everyone in my 'familys' mortgages and debts.
I told you...MENTAL!
More to come later...
Thursday, 1 October 2009
Beauty...
They say that beauty is skin deep...of course the people who say this are all ugly with shit personalities! Beauty is everywhere and in every aspect of life. I hope to illustrate this point today in order to change a friends view of themselves (you know who you are)!
There are many things to look at every day and see beauty. Even if you're not happy where you are, you can loopk around and see wonderful things. An attractive colleague smiling at you, a person sending you a txt that instantly makes you smile, a clear sky, an opportunity. If we are willing to see beauty in other things and other people why do we find it so hard to see beauty in ourselves?
A friend of mind...in fact a few of my friends really...are artistic and amazingly creative. They can see things a s beautiful and create things that are beautiful. One friend in particular is rather troublesome though. She creates AMAZING things and then rips them to pieces in an instant. She makes head-way with her 'self-image' and 'pma' and then reckons she'll never find love etc...she is nothing short of annoying at times! I will provide an example:
There's this guy. She RE-HE-HEALLY likes this guy. She chats to him, she even flirts a little (although she'd never admit this) and he flirts back...but she doesn't see that she has a chance with him. Can you see where my frustration comes in?!
The only reason I write this is because she wasn't happy with my Blogs recently. I've become a bit moany which I can see so I apologised and she suggested I write about her 'un-requited' love. So instead I write about Beauty and tell her:
You are beautiful and you have a matching personality. If he doesn't say 'Yes' when YOU ASK HIM OUT...he is a fool and not worth it.
If we can see things around us that take our breathe away and make us think: WOW! Look at yoursleves and realise that, even though we are our biggest critics, we should dig down and see that the most beautiful thing in our lives is ourselves. If we struggle to see it (and we no doubt will) we should listen to the beautiful people we make our friends. Is that not the reason we have them?! Is their personalities not the reason we chose them? Listen to your friends! You are all wonderful!
That had no order to it at all did it?!
There are many things to look at every day and see beauty. Even if you're not happy where you are, you can loopk around and see wonderful things. An attractive colleague smiling at you, a person sending you a txt that instantly makes you smile, a clear sky, an opportunity. If we are willing to see beauty in other things and other people why do we find it so hard to see beauty in ourselves?
A friend of mind...in fact a few of my friends really...are artistic and amazingly creative. They can see things a s beautiful and create things that are beautiful. One friend in particular is rather troublesome though. She creates AMAZING things and then rips them to pieces in an instant. She makes head-way with her 'self-image' and 'pma' and then reckons she'll never find love etc...she is nothing short of annoying at times! I will provide an example:
There's this guy. She RE-HE-HEALLY likes this guy. She chats to him, she even flirts a little (although she'd never admit this) and he flirts back...but she doesn't see that she has a chance with him. Can you see where my frustration comes in?!
The only reason I write this is because she wasn't happy with my Blogs recently. I've become a bit moany which I can see so I apologised and she suggested I write about her 'un-requited' love. So instead I write about Beauty and tell her:
You are beautiful and you have a matching personality. If he doesn't say 'Yes' when YOU ASK HIM OUT...he is a fool and not worth it.
If we can see things around us that take our breathe away and make us think: WOW! Look at yoursleves and realise that, even though we are our biggest critics, we should dig down and see that the most beautiful thing in our lives is ourselves. If we struggle to see it (and we no doubt will) we should listen to the beautiful people we make our friends. Is that not the reason we have them?! Is their personalities not the reason we chose them? Listen to your friends! You are all wonderful!
That had no order to it at all did it?!
Wednesday, 30 September 2009
I almost didn't write anything today. My inspiration seems to be lacking today. I've mentioned before the way this place I work in can drain you of any 'life-force' you have. I was moved to think about this at lunch time. I was sat with some of the girls from Marketing and we were talking about all of the usual stuff girls talk about (I was out numbered) like shoes, make-up, etc... but then we got on to company protocol for sickness...
I am now on an AIP (Absence Improvement Plan) due to the number of days sickness I've had in a rolling 12-month period (12 if you were wondering on 3 occasions). I find this fairly amusing as a 'colleague' of mine has had nearly 3 times the amount of occasions and 4 times the number of days...this person is not on an AIP...you see this person is best friends with their boss so: when they are sick they are given it as ANNUAL LEAVE! Is it any wonder I struggle to be civil to my 'COLLEAGUES'?!
I've been thinking about what gets me through a day at work and I feel it's the few things that I have listed below:
I am now on an AIP (Absence Improvement Plan) due to the number of days sickness I've had in a rolling 12-month period (12 if you were wondering on 3 occasions). I find this fairly amusing as a 'colleague' of mine has had nearly 3 times the amount of occasions and 4 times the number of days...this person is not on an AIP...you see this person is best friends with their boss so: when they are sick they are given it as ANNUAL LEAVE! Is it any wonder I struggle to be civil to my 'COLLEAGUES'?!
I've been thinking about what gets me through a day at work and I feel it's the few things that I have listed below:
- My work friends - the people who I e-mail and shoot the shit with (you know who you are if you're reading this)
- My external sources of encouragement and joy (again you know who you are and you WILL be reading this)
- The knowledge that no matter how bad it is...I get to leave this dump as soon as the USCIS grant me my visa and I can go and do what I WANT to be doing in America
So, there really is no rhyme or reason to this entry in my on-line bitching forum except that it got my grievance out into the un-told space of the internet allowing me to now get on with my day and look forwards. It also gave me chance to thank those of you I hold dear even if it's not an actual 'Thank You'.
Slanté.
Tuesday, 29 September 2009
Protestation...
Have you ever notice how people who are in the wrong often protest the loudest? When faced with cold fact and evidence it makes them angry, as if you have done them some personal harm. This sort of reaction makes me wonder about how the mind works and how much peoples personalities affect our actions.
Logically, if our argument is knockled down by truth and understanding - there can be no argument. With a relaxed temperament and cool head one might accept defeat. I have noticed that 9 out of 10 people can't hack it. they don't realise that it's over. Fact is Fact. I can be like this at times. When you KNOW something is a certain way, you just KNOW it...then someone shows you that you're wrong...it's not an easy thing to live with. My brain tells me: Oops, sorry about that but my pig-headed attitude some to the front and says: No. We're right. We KNOW we're right! They're wrong! Screw them! Telling me I'm wrong! I'm going to prove I'm right by shouting!
It's a strange thing. I used to do this a lot. I couldn't face the fact that I was wrong. Lately I've been more open to this concept. Taking a step back and doing the 'count to 10' thing your Mam always told you to do. I think I've been doing this because I simply can't be bothered with confrontation anymore. I try to accept my short-comings for what they are and realise they make me a stronger person if I'd only try to understand them.
I don't mean to change myself. Far from it! I actually LIKE me. A LOT! I don't mean to change others either. I think what I'm seeking to change is an idea. The idea that if you are wrong and the other person is right you can't accept it. The idea that if you believe in something so strongly it is irrefutible. I'm not seeking to belittle faith in any way either (I have a strong faith and that is what guides me), no matter what someone has faith in I think it is a great thing. Even if sometimes I didsagree with their Faith makes it no less true. This is the Joy of Faith. I am merely talking about when you're wrong in your opinion. Try to accept it and move on.
One thins I would never argue is belief in oneself. Confidence is something we all ahould have. There are many stigmas around the world which lead to people being bullied, tormented and hurt. We should know that the person isn't just what we perceive them to be. They are much more if we'd simply let them, encourage them.
I'm not sure what this is about in the end. I think your opinion of it matters. If you believe it strongly enough, leave a comment. Tell me what I mean!
Logically, if our argument is knockled down by truth and understanding - there can be no argument. With a relaxed temperament and cool head one might accept defeat. I have noticed that 9 out of 10 people can't hack it. they don't realise that it's over. Fact is Fact. I can be like this at times. When you KNOW something is a certain way, you just KNOW it...then someone shows you that you're wrong...it's not an easy thing to live with. My brain tells me: Oops, sorry about that but my pig-headed attitude some to the front and says: No. We're right. We KNOW we're right! They're wrong! Screw them! Telling me I'm wrong! I'm going to prove I'm right by shouting!
It's a strange thing. I used to do this a lot. I couldn't face the fact that I was wrong. Lately I've been more open to this concept. Taking a step back and doing the 'count to 10' thing your Mam always told you to do. I think I've been doing this because I simply can't be bothered with confrontation anymore. I try to accept my short-comings for what they are and realise they make me a stronger person if I'd only try to understand them.
I don't mean to change myself. Far from it! I actually LIKE me. A LOT! I don't mean to change others either. I think what I'm seeking to change is an idea. The idea that if you are wrong and the other person is right you can't accept it. The idea that if you believe in something so strongly it is irrefutible. I'm not seeking to belittle faith in any way either (I have a strong faith and that is what guides me), no matter what someone has faith in I think it is a great thing. Even if sometimes I didsagree with their Faith makes it no less true. This is the Joy of Faith. I am merely talking about when you're wrong in your opinion. Try to accept it and move on.
One thins I would never argue is belief in oneself. Confidence is something we all ahould have. There are many stigmas around the world which lead to people being bullied, tormented and hurt. We should know that the person isn't just what we perceive them to be. They are much more if we'd simply let them, encourage them.
I'm not sure what this is about in the end. I think your opinion of it matters. If you believe it strongly enough, leave a comment. Tell me what I mean!
Monday, 28 September 2009
mothers...
My mother does something she calls a thought for the week for the pupils at the school she works at. These are generally religious in nature as she works in a Catholic Primary School. The one she asked me to type this week was a quote from Mother Teresa that I had introduced her to. I will tell you the story now.
A reporter was interviewing Mother Teresa once, and they were discussing te work she did in Calcutta. This reporter was asking her what she did, how she accomplished it, and what she hoped to achieve over all. Mother Teresa explained that she wanted her actions to inspire others and change the way the world treats its 'Poor'. To this the cynical reporter said: But you must realise, what you do is like the tiniest of drops in the ocean!'
In response Mother Teresa smiled at him and said: 'My son, the ocean is made up of tiny drops.'
I think that this is a beautiful way of looking at things. Even if you think what you do for others is a driop in the ocean bear in mind that without your little drop...there would be NO ocean! There are so many ways of saying this. for example I remember another story which I often used as a prayer session when I was working with young people at the Briars:
A succesful business man was enjoying a walk on a beach one morning and was puzzled to see a young girl picking up a stranded Starfish, look at it and throw it back into the surf. The man thought this foolish and decided to teach the Young Girl about how the world works. He walked up to her and said: 'little girl, look beyond your feet and see that there are thousands of Starfish stranded on the beach. You can't possible save them all. What you are doing doesn't matter.'
The young girl picked up another starfish, looked at it, smiled, and tossed it into the ocean. She then looked the business man square in the eyes and said: 'it matters to that one.'
You see, no matter how often we are put down for wanting to help people. No matter how insignnificant it may seem even to ourselves remember: what we do matters to someone.
Remember Schindler: 'To save one life, is to save the world entire.'
Friday, 25 September 2009
Lock Down, Late in...
Well this is going to be a RANT!
It seems that every single e-mail I send or recieve (including internal ones) are being scanned or read or whatever it is IT can do to your e-mails! As you may or may not know I'm quite the social butterfly and I'm a mean typist...so I have people in and out of work who I have conversations with throughout the day and this doesn't eat into my work load (not even doing this does to be fair). Even so I find myself trying to NOT e-mail my friends as much as I don't want to get into trouble...even though I'm not passing on any sensetive information...how can you work like that?! It's really starting to bug me! COME ON VISA!
As for the 'late in' part of the rant well...here goes. I am now on what is called a Personal Improvment Plan for the number of days sickness I've had over the past year (as if I can help being ill). Basically it's an agreement which states: You've been ill too many times. Stop it. It's over 6months and I have to make a conscious effort to not get ill...bear in mind I'm an asthmatic and we're just going into winter...breathing aint gonna be easy at times! BUT, the thing that annoys me is that a 'colleague' of mine has had nearly twice the amount of sickness as I have and is 25 minutes late EVERY DAY! Is this person on a PIP?! NO! You see, the boss likes this person! It makes my blood boil! So, I'm moving to America...how can that make you mad at me?! I've given you MONTHS of notice! But if they think they're going to make me leave early they've another thing coming! I'm made of sterner stuff than that...you're stuck with me. Lump it!
RANT OVER!
So, it's Friday. Crunchie day. I've not got the Friday feeling I usually have due to me working at 6am tomorrow morning but still I find myself (despite the above) in a fairly jolly mood. The sun's out, and there's a smile on my face. I think I shall dedicate my day to mooching around doing my job, perusing things to buy on the internet, and looking for a job for someone.
However you spend your Friday please enjoy it! I'll see you all next week. I promise to be happier...screw the lot of them!
It seems that every single e-mail I send or recieve (including internal ones) are being scanned or read or whatever it is IT can do to your e-mails! As you may or may not know I'm quite the social butterfly and I'm a mean typist...so I have people in and out of work who I have conversations with throughout the day and this doesn't eat into my work load (not even doing this does to be fair). Even so I find myself trying to NOT e-mail my friends as much as I don't want to get into trouble...even though I'm not passing on any sensetive information...how can you work like that?! It's really starting to bug me! COME ON VISA!
As for the 'late in' part of the rant well...here goes. I am now on what is called a Personal Improvment Plan for the number of days sickness I've had over the past year (as if I can help being ill). Basically it's an agreement which states: You've been ill too many times. Stop it. It's over 6months and I have to make a conscious effort to not get ill...bear in mind I'm an asthmatic and we're just going into winter...breathing aint gonna be easy at times! BUT, the thing that annoys me is that a 'colleague' of mine has had nearly twice the amount of sickness as I have and is 25 minutes late EVERY DAY! Is this person on a PIP?! NO! You see, the boss likes this person! It makes my blood boil! So, I'm moving to America...how can that make you mad at me?! I've given you MONTHS of notice! But if they think they're going to make me leave early they've another thing coming! I'm made of sterner stuff than that...you're stuck with me. Lump it!
RANT OVER!
So, it's Friday. Crunchie day. I've not got the Friday feeling I usually have due to me working at 6am tomorrow morning but still I find myself (despite the above) in a fairly jolly mood. The sun's out, and there's a smile on my face. I think I shall dedicate my day to mooching around doing my job, perusing things to buy on the internet, and looking for a job for someone.
However you spend your Friday please enjoy it! I'll see you all next week. I promise to be happier...screw the lot of them!
Thursday, 24 September 2009
Inspirational Quotes
'Everything will be OK in the end. If it's not OK, it's not the end.'
My little sister once gave me a book made of leaves and recycled paper. It's lovely. In this book she had written quotes to help me through life; for times when things get tough, guidance in general, even things to remember when you're ridiculously happy.
I tell you this because I was reading it last night and basically opened it at a random page to read the above. I thought this was quite apt for my life at the moment. There are people who I care about and love (in some cases) who are going through a...bad patch. This is where I find life to be VERY hard. I'm usually the optimistic, happy-go-lucky sort of fella who barely lets badness break his gait. But when you see people around you in trouble or not happy it becomes hard to keep this positive focus. You can feel pretty helpless and downright useless to be honest because in these cases there is generally nothing you can do to help. You can't make that difference that will help them along the way.
This is true. However, there are some things that you don't realise you're doing that make the world of difference to the people going through a tricky part in their lives. You don't realise the profound affect you can have on people by simply giving them space, bringing them a beer, talking about ANYTHING that's not related to what they're going through. These things (that may seem pointless to you) actually make people feel as if things are on the up. For that briefest moment things are ok. I want to refer to a film called The Shawshank Redemption. At one point the protagonist, Andy, manages to get the head 'screw' to provide a few beers for his co-workers as they tar a roof. He sits there with a smile on his face because he knows that in that moment 'with the sun on our faces and an ice cold beer in our hands...we felt free.'
So, to the point. When I started this the point was to share a few Inspirational Quotes with you. But it seems I have been giving a pep-talk on how to deal with people who are having troubles. Simply be there and talk. Be there and listen. Be there and give a break to what may seem an endless tunnel with no light for the person you're with.
You never know, you may make a difference simply by sitting in silence. It seems like a small thing in an ocean of troubles but, as Mother Teresa said:
'The ocean is made up of little drops.'
My little sister once gave me a book made of leaves and recycled paper. It's lovely. In this book she had written quotes to help me through life; for times when things get tough, guidance in general, even things to remember when you're ridiculously happy.
I tell you this because I was reading it last night and basically opened it at a random page to read the above. I thought this was quite apt for my life at the moment. There are people who I care about and love (in some cases) who are going through a...bad patch. This is where I find life to be VERY hard. I'm usually the optimistic, happy-go-lucky sort of fella who barely lets badness break his gait. But when you see people around you in trouble or not happy it becomes hard to keep this positive focus. You can feel pretty helpless and downright useless to be honest because in these cases there is generally nothing you can do to help. You can't make that difference that will help them along the way.
This is true. However, there are some things that you don't realise you're doing that make the world of difference to the people going through a tricky part in their lives. You don't realise the profound affect you can have on people by simply giving them space, bringing them a beer, talking about ANYTHING that's not related to what they're going through. These things (that may seem pointless to you) actually make people feel as if things are on the up. For that briefest moment things are ok. I want to refer to a film called The Shawshank Redemption. At one point the protagonist, Andy, manages to get the head 'screw' to provide a few beers for his co-workers as they tar a roof. He sits there with a smile on his face because he knows that in that moment 'with the sun on our faces and an ice cold beer in our hands...we felt free.'
So, to the point. When I started this the point was to share a few Inspirational Quotes with you. But it seems I have been giving a pep-talk on how to deal with people who are having troubles. Simply be there and talk. Be there and listen. Be there and give a break to what may seem an endless tunnel with no light for the person you're with.
You never know, you may make a difference simply by sitting in silence. It seems like a small thing in an ocean of troubles but, as Mother Teresa said:
'The ocean is made up of little drops.'
Wednesday, 23 September 2009
8-0-3!
Gran Canaria is AMAZING! I loved the place! I figured I'd update the world on what went on...hold on to your hats!
The week was quality. I've not had that much fun in years! I don't think I could do it justice fully in a blog! We ate, we drank, we had a party on our balcony! It's safe to say that the 'Lads of 803' were the life and soul of the apartments!
Here is a brief overview of what we got up to...a flavour if you will...
We arrived on Sunday and went immediately to 'the fry up shop'...excellent. Chilled by the pool and went out.
Monday we went to Amadores beach and saw a man nearly die! Monday also saw the start of the world's first 803 golf tournament...CRAZY! Tuesday saw the boys venture to a bar called TROPICANA'S...18euros and that was us set up for drinks all night...Vodka flowed and drinking competitions led by the DJ started...we ended up sitting around in our boxers and it was as if it didn't even matter! beautiful! Naked women everywhere! Wednesday was the day of the BBQ...and the boys party on the balcony! We went down in Cala Nova History that day...
You know what...I'm not doing this justice at all. Suffice it to say the week rocked!
I'd like to change my tone here. Friendship comes and goes in this life but you know you're among proper friends (albeit younger friends) when you don't have to make an effort to enjoy yourself. So, for that...Gentlemen, I thank you.
When you're on holiday it seems easier to befriend people. Have you ever noticed your attitude change? You're more open, you almost SEEK people to be with. It's great. We made some great friends in Puerto Rico and I intend to keep in contact with each of them. Especially the couple over the wall in 804. Great GREAT people. Holiday made me think a lot about how judgemental we can be in every day life and how when we go away from our regular surroundings we seem to give people more of a chance to get in. We let our guard down.
I'd like to encourage this where possible in real life. Yes, it's true it may open us up to being let down more often but I think the bonuses would far outweigh the negatives.
The week was quality. I've not had that much fun in years! I don't think I could do it justice fully in a blog! We ate, we drank, we had a party on our balcony! It's safe to say that the 'Lads of 803' were the life and soul of the apartments!
Here is a brief overview of what we got up to...a flavour if you will...
We arrived on Sunday and went immediately to 'the fry up shop'...excellent. Chilled by the pool and went out.
Monday we went to Amadores beach and saw a man nearly die! Monday also saw the start of the world's first 803 golf tournament...CRAZY! Tuesday saw the boys venture to a bar called TROPICANA'S...18euros and that was us set up for drinks all night...Vodka flowed and drinking competitions led by the DJ started...we ended up sitting around in our boxers and it was as if it didn't even matter! beautiful! Naked women everywhere! Wednesday was the day of the BBQ...and the boys party on the balcony! We went down in Cala Nova History that day...
You know what...I'm not doing this justice at all. Suffice it to say the week rocked!
I'd like to change my tone here. Friendship comes and goes in this life but you know you're among proper friends (albeit younger friends) when you don't have to make an effort to enjoy yourself. So, for that...Gentlemen, I thank you.
When you're on holiday it seems easier to befriend people. Have you ever noticed your attitude change? You're more open, you almost SEEK people to be with. It's great. We made some great friends in Puerto Rico and I intend to keep in contact with each of them. Especially the couple over the wall in 804. Great GREAT people. Holiday made me think a lot about how judgemental we can be in every day life and how when we go away from our regular surroundings we seem to give people more of a chance to get in. We let our guard down.
I'd like to encourage this where possible in real life. Yes, it's true it may open us up to being let down more often but I think the bonuses would far outweigh the negatives.
Tuesday, 22 September 2009
It's been a long time...
I had intended to give a holiday BLOG when I returned. I was then struck down by a Chest Infection so I was unable to do so. I have decided to do a few as and when I can. Little BLOGs that go through the immense amount of things that have happened recently in this thing I call my life!
So, this is an update to tell you where I am and what I am going to do. Keep your eyes peeled for the next installment I shall call 8-0-3!
So, this is an update to tell you where I am and what I am going to do. Keep your eyes peeled for the next installment I shall call 8-0-3!
Friday, 4 September 2009
Exciting Times...
Guess what I had in the post today...a letter fomr the STATES! That's right, you guessed it...It wasn't anything to do with my visa. GUTTED! It was information about my job from my new boss. But hey, at least it's something about my new life...that I'm waiting for it to begin!
So, I go away without any news but I'm pleased with the brief excitement I had this morning when my darling Dad rang me and said: Seán! You've got a letter from the States! Bless him.
Earlier I promised something philosophical this afternoon if I had chance...I'm at a different building this afternoon and it's really quiet so...I've got the chance.
I would like to talk to you about special places. I'm not being seedy here. I have been collecting places throughout my life that I use as a place to go and escape, to sit with my thoughts and thrash out my ideas and worries in my little head.
I think we all have places or things that we feel comfortable with. When you were a child you may have had a favourite Teddy or a blanket that you went EVERYWHERE with. I've been thinking about this quite a bit recently as I've not been to one of my special places in a while and I'm pleased to say that the only pull there is the people. Not any issues. The pattern in my places is the people there who make me feel welcome, loved, and wanted. You see I think places are what they are due to the people within. It's like the Church. A Church is a building of bricks and mortar, THE Church is the people gathering within it's walls to celebrate together. I would suggest we all have these places even if we don't acknowledge them as such.
Another use is inspiration. I have 2 places I go to escape and get inspired. There are no people here. I have one that I haven't been to in 6 years (it's been THAT long). It's at the Briars. I used to climb out of the 'Attic' bedroom windows and sit on the roof to gaze out across Derbyshire. the other is NEAR the Briars. A walk we used to call the SCARY CHASE. As you turned towards the near vertical drop we used to guide Young People down there is an out-crop of Rock. You can sit on this rock and look out over the forest..you can see the sun breaking through patches of cloud. One of the most beautiful places on Earth.
Anyway, the philosophy. I think we get through life with our own little supports. Our places or people who help and guide us, allow us to throw things around and let us just BE.
If you don't have anything like this I feel sorry for you and would urge you: Find somewhere, find someone. Be yourself and get all of troubles out there. It helps. Like my BLOG...it's to get things off my chest and you never know; maybe help a few people somehow!
Have a lovely week. I'll tell you all about mine when I'm back!
So, I go away without any news but I'm pleased with the brief excitement I had this morning when my darling Dad rang me and said: Seán! You've got a letter from the States! Bless him.
Earlier I promised something philosophical this afternoon if I had chance...I'm at a different building this afternoon and it's really quiet so...I've got the chance.
I would like to talk to you about special places. I'm not being seedy here. I have been collecting places throughout my life that I use as a place to go and escape, to sit with my thoughts and thrash out my ideas and worries in my little head.
I think we all have places or things that we feel comfortable with. When you were a child you may have had a favourite Teddy or a blanket that you went EVERYWHERE with. I've been thinking about this quite a bit recently as I've not been to one of my special places in a while and I'm pleased to say that the only pull there is the people. Not any issues. The pattern in my places is the people there who make me feel welcome, loved, and wanted. You see I think places are what they are due to the people within. It's like the Church. A Church is a building of bricks and mortar, THE Church is the people gathering within it's walls to celebrate together. I would suggest we all have these places even if we don't acknowledge them as such.
Another use is inspiration. I have 2 places I go to escape and get inspired. There are no people here. I have one that I haven't been to in 6 years (it's been THAT long). It's at the Briars. I used to climb out of the 'Attic' bedroom windows and sit on the roof to gaze out across Derbyshire. the other is NEAR the Briars. A walk we used to call the SCARY CHASE. As you turned towards the near vertical drop we used to guide Young People down there is an out-crop of Rock. You can sit on this rock and look out over the forest..you can see the sun breaking through patches of cloud. One of the most beautiful places on Earth.
Anyway, the philosophy. I think we get through life with our own little supports. Our places or people who help and guide us, allow us to throw things around and let us just BE.
If you don't have anything like this I feel sorry for you and would urge you: Find somewhere, find someone. Be yourself and get all of troubles out there. It helps. Like my BLOG...it's to get things off my chest and you never know; maybe help a few people somehow!
Have a lovely week. I'll tell you all about mine when I'm back!
Holiday...Celebrate!
Now then! It's my last day at work until the 15th September! GET IN! I'm off to Gran Canaria tomorrow and I CAN'T wait! You see, I've decided I rather deserve this break. All I seem to have been doing this year is waiting, facing disappointment, and being frustrated by the US immigration people! So I'm off for 'Fun, Fun, Fun' as Noah and The Whale sing!
Today no-one can get me down! The end is near and there's actually nothing they (the people I work with) can do about it. Myself and my little brother will be on a lpane tomorrow and getting ready to...what's the phrase?? Get on it! BOOM (that's what some of the cool kids say these days apparently)!
I wanted to talk about something deep and meaningful today (and I might do later...if you're lucky), I wanted to give you something to think about in my absence, some Farrell-Philosophy, a thinker. But, I'm in too much of a buzzing mood to do it at the minute.
Maybe this afternoon. But, my fine friends, if not I shall bid you all farewell. Don't miss me too much and...I'd love to say I'll be thinking of you but...I honestly wont!
Today no-one can get me down! The end is near and there's actually nothing they (the people I work with) can do about it. Myself and my little brother will be on a lpane tomorrow and getting ready to...what's the phrase?? Get on it! BOOM (that's what some of the cool kids say these days apparently)!
I wanted to talk about something deep and meaningful today (and I might do later...if you're lucky), I wanted to give you something to think about in my absence, some Farrell-Philosophy, a thinker. But, I'm in too much of a buzzing mood to do it at the minute.
Maybe this afternoon. But, my fine friends, if not I shall bid you all farewell. Don't miss me too much and...I'd love to say I'll be thinking of you but...I honestly wont!
Thursday, 3 September 2009
Today is not bright. Today is not Orange!
I can't believe how dull it is today! It seems winter is well and truely here. My mood today is not helped by the fact that Stella is still with me...I have sluggish eyes. Not good.
Anyway, I thought (even with my sluggish attitude) I'd try and cheer up the day some...with my lovely photo (eyes left). I didn't take it...I found it on Google!
SO, I'm armed with a Latte and ready for the off.
I'm going for one of my 'take that frown and flip it' ambles today!
Autumn is one of my favourite seasons. It is a season of photographic opportunity and think about it...is there really anything better than taking a stroll all wrapped up against the elements and kicking through the golden-brown leaves? When you get home you have a cup of cocoa to warm your cockles and sit infront of the fire (if you have one).
Have you noticed that winter food is better too!? Hot-Pots, caseroles, pies, and chunky soup! MUCH better than salad! I hope that I have cheered your day up in some way...even if it's just the thought of chunky wholesome soup! When you're feeling down about the state of the weather think of the fun of autumn and look forward to winter. Gotta love making snowmen!
Bet you weren't expecting that!
Wednesday, 2 September 2009
Lock Down!
Well...it's been 8months since I was at risk of redundancy. It seems the next round of them is about to start. People I like at work are 'At Risk' again and to add insult to injury it is now impossible to send e-mails to any external address (hotmail, gmail and so on). It is with sadness that I realise one of my main sources of entertainment and sanity has now been restricted.
I have touched on how I sometimes feel about work before and days like today just dont do my mood any good whatsoever! 'The Company' take 1 further step towards suffocating the masses it refers to as 'Colleagues'. Can you believe how...militant company's can be?! No internet access without Director sign off (supposedly!), no external e-mails - in or out - without Directors sign off, and now I can't even e-mail my personal account with stuff I do for my visa (or jokes and funny pics!).
So, enjoy your internet-based freedom if you have it and feel free to send me things. This is fine. Please don't ask questions though as I wont be abel to respond!
From my cyber-prison I bid you - Good Day!
I have touched on how I sometimes feel about work before and days like today just dont do my mood any good whatsoever! 'The Company' take 1 further step towards suffocating the masses it refers to as 'Colleagues'. Can you believe how...militant company's can be?! No internet access without Director sign off (supposedly!), no external e-mails - in or out - without Directors sign off, and now I can't even e-mail my personal account with stuff I do for my visa (or jokes and funny pics!).
So, enjoy your internet-based freedom if you have it and feel free to send me things. This is fine. Please don't ask questions though as I wont be abel to respond!
From my cyber-prison I bid you - Good Day!
Tuesday, 1 September 2009
Countdown...Live your life
Without any planning whatsoever I have managed to book my holiday for next week...right after a long weekend...it doesn't get better! Back to work after a nice relaxing time for a SHORT week and then flying to Gran Canaria after the England match on Saturday?! AWESOME!
So I'm officially on countdown. 4days of work and then I'm off. Sun, Sea, Sand, and San Miguel! Beautiful. I think I look at life as a series of goals, things to aim for and look towards. I find that this helps me through times when it seems that nothing is going my way. I would suggest this would be a good outlook on life. Here's what I try to do:
I think that EVERYTHING has good in it no matter how bad it seems. You just need to look hard enough.
People should be trusted until they prove un-trustworthy.
No matter how hard you think your life is always remember: there is ALWAYS someone worse off than you.
I'm not too sure why I tell you this. I have mentioned before my positive outlook on life and I pride myself by this. But, I'm human and sometimes for reasons I can't even fathom I'm in a bad place surrounded by hate, blame, and mis-trust. It is then that my secret weapon comes into play...My Family (and I'm not just talking about my ACTUAL family). There is a great many people in my life who know me very well. There are others (such as my immediate family and people I would call my chosen family) who know me better than I know myself. Whenever I am down they enter the fray and bring me home again and for that I thank every single one of you (if you are close enough you know who you are). The best saying I have heard and a saying I live by is:
Friends are the family you choose for yourself
I am lucky enough to have an amazing family in every way. Despite the distance between me and some of them they are there...like stars in a cloudy night; You might not see them but you know they're there.
So I'm officially on countdown. 4days of work and then I'm off. Sun, Sea, Sand, and San Miguel! Beautiful. I think I look at life as a series of goals, things to aim for and look towards. I find that this helps me through times when it seems that nothing is going my way. I would suggest this would be a good outlook on life. Here's what I try to do:
I think that EVERYTHING has good in it no matter how bad it seems. You just need to look hard enough.
People should be trusted until they prove un-trustworthy.
No matter how hard you think your life is always remember: there is ALWAYS someone worse off than you.
I'm not too sure why I tell you this. I have mentioned before my positive outlook on life and I pride myself by this. But, I'm human and sometimes for reasons I can't even fathom I'm in a bad place surrounded by hate, blame, and mis-trust. It is then that my secret weapon comes into play...My Family (and I'm not just talking about my ACTUAL family). There is a great many people in my life who know me very well. There are others (such as my immediate family and people I would call my chosen family) who know me better than I know myself. Whenever I am down they enter the fray and bring me home again and for that I thank every single one of you (if you are close enough you know who you are). The best saying I have heard and a saying I live by is:
Friends are the family you choose for yourself
I am lucky enough to have an amazing family in every way. Despite the distance between me and some of them they are there...like stars in a cloudy night; You might not see them but you know they're there.
Friday, 28 August 2009
Traffic Rozzers & Insurance Companies
Last night my little brother was stopped by a copper on his way home from town. The guy followed him for about 2 miles whilst running a vehicle check. Kev got into the car and was asked if he would do a breathaliser test. Of course he said yes...then the rozzer realised he didn't have a breathaliser machine! What a muppet! It turns out that our insurers haven't registered with the police that our car is insured...the copper was 'too busy' to impound the car so gave Kev 2 weeks to sort it out or he will come and impound it.
Ok, so this is fair. If his database says we dont you can't argue it without your paperwork. A trip to the cop-shop is in order tonight. Kev, being a sensible young lad, asked the guy what he should do in the mean time to which he got the reply: 'Oh, just drive it' There is no logic to why the guy pulled him over! If you're not insured you're going to get pulled over but...you can still drive it?!
As you can imagine this rather annoyed me...and Kev...and my Mam...I'm not going to even mention my dad! He's FURIOUS!
So this little story has prompted me to think about the trust we have in other people. People we have never met and chances are never will. The faceless insurance brokers who you trust to ensure you are driving within the law. My advice is this: DON'T TRUST THEM! Question every single detail you can think of surrounding your insurance! You never know when it'll bite you in the ass when you least expect it. Essentially you're messing with the law and you are the one who is in the wrong!
On a lighter note, it's Friday. The BEST day of the week...The start of the weekend! If you have plans I hope you enjoy them. Have a drink (if you partake), have a dance (like no-one's watching), and remember this crutial fact of this weekend...It's a long one ladies and gents. God Bless Bank Holidays!
And, until next time. Look after yourselves. And each other!
Ok, so this is fair. If his database says we dont you can't argue it without your paperwork. A trip to the cop-shop is in order tonight. Kev, being a sensible young lad, asked the guy what he should do in the mean time to which he got the reply: 'Oh, just drive it' There is no logic to why the guy pulled him over! If you're not insured you're going to get pulled over but...you can still drive it?!
As you can imagine this rather annoyed me...and Kev...and my Mam...I'm not going to even mention my dad! He's FURIOUS!
So this little story has prompted me to think about the trust we have in other people. People we have never met and chances are never will. The faceless insurance brokers who you trust to ensure you are driving within the law. My advice is this: DON'T TRUST THEM! Question every single detail you can think of surrounding your insurance! You never know when it'll bite you in the ass when you least expect it. Essentially you're messing with the law and you are the one who is in the wrong!
On a lighter note, it's Friday. The BEST day of the week...The start of the weekend! If you have plans I hope you enjoy them. Have a drink (if you partake), have a dance (like no-one's watching), and remember this crutial fact of this weekend...It's a long one ladies and gents. God Bless Bank Holidays!
And, until next time. Look after yourselves. And each other!
Thursday, 27 August 2009
Music
Music changes your mood. It can make you smile, it can make you dance, it can summon memories of old friends and cause a tear or two. There are people in this world who can change you with their words and melodies and today I'm going to talk about a few of my favourite songs and how they make me feel.
I'd like to start with one of the most gifted guitarists I've ever experienced. Carlos Santana. I could lie on my bed, on a lilo in a pool, or a concrete floor and close my eyes. His music causes me to drift away in a sea of thoughts and wishes that I could happily remain in all day. I once wished to be HALF as good as Senor Santana but have reached the sad realisation that I can never be. The man is just magic.
You will see a trend appear as you read this note. The next person I will mention is Eric Clapton. Another incredibly gifted guitarist. He has written 3 songs that are among my favourites. Tears in heaven - a sad song written about the tragic death of his son. This song I prefer to play myself and sing (rather sadly but NOT in a boy-band way) with my eyes closed. Blue eyes blue - just a lovely song about how love can sometimes make you sad. The third is a lovely song you will often hear at weddings: Wonderful Tonight - a lovely song. romantic even..until you realise he wrote it about his mistress! These songs are all lovely and if you pay no attention to the words they make you smile. Mr Clapton is a tricky guy. In one hand I LOVE his music. On the other side of the coin though his music is sad, it can anger...but like Blue eyes says: that's what love does to you!
Finally, I'm going to talk about a band called Scouting for Girls. I was introduced to this band by a close friend (you nkow yourself by now brother!) and I've got to say that these guys write happy music! The reason I speak of them is this: No matter what my mood, or how the day is going these lads can lift my spirits and make me see that yes, it's not the best right now but lift your head and have a look forwards. Because wherever we're heading, we'll get there. When we arrive...well, then it's all been worth while.
Thanks for listening. You never know, maybe one day I'll have a song written that makes you stop and think.
I'd like to start with one of the most gifted guitarists I've ever experienced. Carlos Santana. I could lie on my bed, on a lilo in a pool, or a concrete floor and close my eyes. His music causes me to drift away in a sea of thoughts and wishes that I could happily remain in all day. I once wished to be HALF as good as Senor Santana but have reached the sad realisation that I can never be. The man is just magic.
You will see a trend appear as you read this note. The next person I will mention is Eric Clapton. Another incredibly gifted guitarist. He has written 3 songs that are among my favourites. Tears in heaven - a sad song written about the tragic death of his son. This song I prefer to play myself and sing (rather sadly but NOT in a boy-band way) with my eyes closed. Blue eyes blue - just a lovely song about how love can sometimes make you sad. The third is a lovely song you will often hear at weddings: Wonderful Tonight - a lovely song. romantic even..until you realise he wrote it about his mistress! These songs are all lovely and if you pay no attention to the words they make you smile. Mr Clapton is a tricky guy. In one hand I LOVE his music. On the other side of the coin though his music is sad, it can anger...but like Blue eyes says: that's what love does to you!
Finally, I'm going to talk about a band called Scouting for Girls. I was introduced to this band by a close friend (you nkow yourself by now brother!) and I've got to say that these guys write happy music! The reason I speak of them is this: No matter what my mood, or how the day is going these lads can lift my spirits and make me see that yes, it's not the best right now but lift your head and have a look forwards. Because wherever we're heading, we'll get there. When we arrive...well, then it's all been worth while.
Thanks for listening. You never know, maybe one day I'll have a song written that makes you stop and think.
Wednesday, 26 August 2009
Sexual harrasment and Swine Flu
I can't actually believe that a guy from IT has just called my boss sexy! She's never BEEN sexy! It could be construed as the first part of my title today but they all love it...until he walks out and then they hate him! I HATE 2-faced people!
I think that most people (and I include guys in this) get sexually harrassed at some point in their working day. The problem is some people actually like it! They love the attention, they seek people who will be inappropriate towards them! I don't get it. The worrying thing for me though is that sometimes flirting is taken to be sexual harrassment too...I'm a HUGE flirt! I tread carefully and try to pick my audience but if I ever upset people with this I can only apologise. It's just a bit of fun!
SWINE FLU! My darling big brother has swine flu. He says it's horrible and it feels like the worlds worst ever hangover...he should know! So I just wanted to include this in my daily 'article' and say that I would ask for your best wishes for him in whatever form they take.
I think that most people (and I include guys in this) get sexually harrassed at some point in their working day. The problem is some people actually like it! They love the attention, they seek people who will be inappropriate towards them! I don't get it. The worrying thing for me though is that sometimes flirting is taken to be sexual harrassment too...I'm a HUGE flirt! I tread carefully and try to pick my audience but if I ever upset people with this I can only apologise. It's just a bit of fun!
SWINE FLU! My darling big brother has swine flu. He says it's horrible and it feels like the worlds worst ever hangover...he should know! So I just wanted to include this in my daily 'article' and say that I would ask for your best wishes for him in whatever form they take.
Tuesday, 25 August 2009
Half Day Finances
Today I am on a half day. I am a good brother you see and I am taking my little sister and her family to the airport for their summer holiday.
Today is also payday so rather depressingly I'm sat paying bills at work...there goes a third of my pay instantly!
But this brought me to thinking about why we work. I think there is essentially 2 resons:
The first is of course to pay the bills. I know some of my friends are struggling at the moment with recession-based un-employment. The situations we find ourselves in through redundancy or personal issues have a huge impact on how we are able to live. Can you imagine being one of the millions looking for work and as the month goes on your ability to fight for a job wanes as you can almost see your credit-rating fall because you know you can't afford your bills and there is no way out of it...not a good place to be I'd wager. I am fortunate enough to be in work even with San Francisco in the distant future. My boss and colleagues are being great and I work on at my usual rate.
The second reason to work is our social lives. There is a trend to this also whcih follows the payment month. We are all (as one of my closest friends always used to say) 'Weekend Millionaires'! We go out and probably spend too much but it's ok. This is our main indulgent weekend. The one where you KNOW you have enough money and you're not going to be embarrassed at the pub with no money to pay for your round. Then we start to plan our weekends and by the end of the month we're staying in with a dvd anhaving a glass of wine with our meal.
If you are lucky enough to enjoy your jobs CONGRATULATIONS! If not, try to think of the times when we have freedom to enjoy ourselves and the funds to do so properly!
Enjoy your pay. God knows you deserve it!
If you don't have a job at the minute try and keep your chin up. these things are sent to test us. If we let them win it doesn't help our prospects.
Today is also payday so rather depressingly I'm sat paying bills at work...there goes a third of my pay instantly!
But this brought me to thinking about why we work. I think there is essentially 2 resons:
The first is of course to pay the bills. I know some of my friends are struggling at the moment with recession-based un-employment. The situations we find ourselves in through redundancy or personal issues have a huge impact on how we are able to live. Can you imagine being one of the millions looking for work and as the month goes on your ability to fight for a job wanes as you can almost see your credit-rating fall because you know you can't afford your bills and there is no way out of it...not a good place to be I'd wager. I am fortunate enough to be in work even with San Francisco in the distant future. My boss and colleagues are being great and I work on at my usual rate.
The second reason to work is our social lives. There is a trend to this also whcih follows the payment month. We are all (as one of my closest friends always used to say) 'Weekend Millionaires'! We go out and probably spend too much but it's ok. This is our main indulgent weekend. The one where you KNOW you have enough money and you're not going to be embarrassed at the pub with no money to pay for your round. Then we start to plan our weekends and by the end of the month we're staying in with a dvd anhaving a glass of wine with our meal.
If you are lucky enough to enjoy your jobs CONGRATULATIONS! If not, try to think of the times when we have freedom to enjoy ourselves and the funds to do so properly!
Enjoy your pay. God knows you deserve it!
If you don't have a job at the minute try and keep your chin up. these things are sent to test us. If we let them win it doesn't help our prospects.
Monday, 24 August 2009
New days are dawning...
The start of the week is a perplexing thing to write about. As mentioned in previous texts of mine people often look at this as a bad thing and designate a particular day as 'the worst'. I have actually started this week with a smile on my face and an optimistic outlook. The only trouble I have is...I don't know why! There is no rhyme or reason. It just is what it is! The most confusing part is you'd think I'd be upset due the chunk of my face I removed this morning mith my razor (I've not cut myself shaving in ages!).
So, we come to my topic. New days dawning. Ask yourself, how many times have I 'started fresh'? We ALL do the New Years Resolution thing. Mine actually last about a day or so (As you get to know me you will find my will power in things such as abstinence is almost non-existant!). I've lost count of the amount of times I've given up Alcohol for a month and lasted a week, given up smoking and then gone to work and taken it up again! I ask for your help on this Ladies and Gents. Tips and ideas are most welcome!
I think we all want to better ourselves in one way or another. I have a couple of friends who have hit a target they were aiming for recently and to them I say: I'm really proud of you. If only I could share part of your will power!
So I am looking at this topic and potentially a new dat dawning for Seán Matthew Stephen Farrell Esq. From here on out I resolve to try harder at bettering myself. Give myself some of the effort I put into other people and try my hardest (even though it probably will not happen) to realise when I am being used and walk away. This is the hardest thing I will ever try simply because it is in my nature to help...to be there for people I care about...even if they don't seem to care about me as much.
Thank you for listening today and thanks for your on-going support!
So, we come to my topic. New days dawning. Ask yourself, how many times have I 'started fresh'? We ALL do the New Years Resolution thing. Mine actually last about a day or so (As you get to know me you will find my will power in things such as abstinence is almost non-existant!). I've lost count of the amount of times I've given up Alcohol for a month and lasted a week, given up smoking and then gone to work and taken it up again! I ask for your help on this Ladies and Gents. Tips and ideas are most welcome!
I think we all want to better ourselves in one way or another. I have a couple of friends who have hit a target they were aiming for recently and to them I say: I'm really proud of you. If only I could share part of your will power!
So I am looking at this topic and potentially a new dat dawning for Seán Matthew Stephen Farrell Esq. From here on out I resolve to try harder at bettering myself. Give myself some of the effort I put into other people and try my hardest (even though it probably will not happen) to realise when I am being used and walk away. This is the hardest thing I will ever try simply because it is in my nature to help...to be there for people I care about...even if they don't seem to care about me as much.
Thank you for listening today and thanks for your on-going support!
Friday, 21 August 2009
Weekend
WOW! It's here! I love it when the weekend happens! Especially when you've had a long week, done more than your colleagues give you credit for and God Damn it, you deserve your Hendricks and cucumber!
This will be a short sign off for the week guys and girls simply saying: Live your Weekend like you never have to return to work!
ENJOY!
This will be a short sign off for the week guys and girls simply saying: Live your Weekend like you never have to return to work!
ENJOY!
Thursday, 20 August 2009
All's well that ends well...
I've been at work since 6am this morning. This is basically because I had to take my old man to the airport for half 5 and, as I was on this side of Nottingham I came in. It's funny the way people reacted when I told them. Some thought I was mad, others said I was a loser. But, I look at it like this: I was in early but I get to leave at lunch-time and have a full afternoon doing things I WANT to do! And the joy of it is there's no-one in a 6am so it wasn't like I was giving my all now is it?!
The title of this little...topic...can be looked at in many ways. The way I have been feeling recently it could be seen as: I'm having a shit time and it had better sort itself out before I get low! But, a good friend of mine once taught me about PMA (Positive Mental Attitude) so, I'm taking that frown, flipping it on its arse and looking at things more brightly. So, I don't have my visa but my friends in the states are missng me and can't wait to see me. Positive. I've got no money whatsoever until I get paid and all of the pay is taken up but I'm going to Gran Canaria next month. Positive. I'm going to have to cook all week but I get to cook what I like. Positive.
These vary in importance but when you work where I work the little things can be the ones that pull you down. This place has the ability to sap your life-source. I'm not giong to let it! I don't care anymore. This place is immoral and corrupt. But I'm not. I will do my job, I WILL get out of here.
So...All's well that ends well!
The title of this little...topic...can be looked at in many ways. The way I have been feeling recently it could be seen as: I'm having a shit time and it had better sort itself out before I get low! But, a good friend of mine once taught me about PMA (Positive Mental Attitude) so, I'm taking that frown, flipping it on its arse and looking at things more brightly. So, I don't have my visa but my friends in the states are missng me and can't wait to see me. Positive. I've got no money whatsoever until I get paid and all of the pay is taken up but I'm going to Gran Canaria next month. Positive. I'm going to have to cook all week but I get to cook what I like. Positive.
These vary in importance but when you work where I work the little things can be the ones that pull you down. This place has the ability to sap your life-source. I'm not giong to let it! I don't care anymore. This place is immoral and corrupt. But I'm not. I will do my job, I WILL get out of here.
So...All's well that ends well!
Wednesday, 19 August 2009
Today
What a day! Oh, what a day!
It's days like this that make me feel happy. It's the hottest day of the year (so the TV tells me) and bright weather just simply makes me smile.
Have you ever noticed how things around you really change your outlook on things? Even at work today I am smiling and EVEN MORE helpful at work! This isno mean feat I don't mind telling you.
Anyway, a short one today to tell you all that I'm feeling happy, the weather is fine, and all in my world is good.
It's days like this that make me feel happy. It's the hottest day of the year (so the TV tells me) and bright weather just simply makes me smile.
Have you ever noticed how things around you really change your outlook on things? Even at work today I am smiling and EVEN MORE helpful at work! This isno mean feat I don't mind telling you.
Anyway, a short one today to tell you all that I'm feeling happy, the weather is fine, and all in my world is good.
Tuesday, 18 August 2009
Tests
Life's full of 'em ain't it?!
Drugs test, Maths tests, Driving test, Breathe tests, and Pregnancy tests...
But, I think that the most important tests you can have are the ones that life throws at you on a daily basis. Tests on your personal life, test on your ability to put up with other people's shite, tests of your will power and attitude.
We test each other every day. You test the atmosphere in the room to see whether or not you can tell a certain jkoe (unless you're my little brother who actually couldn't give a flyer!), you test the water with a person when you have to give news they might not want, you test how cheeky you can be to your boss (in this case I don't give a flyer!), and you test people's attitudes to see if you can put up with them today or not!
It's interesting to see how people react to you or percieve your meaning. Have you ever tried telling someone EXACTLY what you're going to the toilet for?! It's hilarious. We all know it's a natural bodily function but we are almost programmed to be repulsed by the thought of it. Try getting up form your desk and going...and as you go say quite loudly: It's only a number one guys, there's no need to panic! I wonder if you'd get a discaplinary?!
I feel that the above ramble in leading somewhere and i guess it's to here:
The most trying tests are the ones where it's our own friends who test us. Whether it be an omission of fact, an act that completely disregards anything you have together or the way you treat the other. These things, I have learnt the hard way, can hurt. but we get on with them, we move upwards and we learn, rather sadly, to perhaps not give as much to people. Wait for them to give maybe? Be more distant?
These things trouble me and your thoughts are welcome because this idea goes against everything that makes me...well, me.
Drugs test, Maths tests, Driving test, Breathe tests, and Pregnancy tests...
But, I think that the most important tests you can have are the ones that life throws at you on a daily basis. Tests on your personal life, test on your ability to put up with other people's shite, tests of your will power and attitude.
We test each other every day. You test the atmosphere in the room to see whether or not you can tell a certain jkoe (unless you're my little brother who actually couldn't give a flyer!), you test the water with a person when you have to give news they might not want, you test how cheeky you can be to your boss (in this case I don't give a flyer!), and you test people's attitudes to see if you can put up with them today or not!
It's interesting to see how people react to you or percieve your meaning. Have you ever tried telling someone EXACTLY what you're going to the toilet for?! It's hilarious. We all know it's a natural bodily function but we are almost programmed to be repulsed by the thought of it. Try getting up form your desk and going...and as you go say quite loudly: It's only a number one guys, there's no need to panic! I wonder if you'd get a discaplinary?!
I feel that the above ramble in leading somewhere and i guess it's to here:
The most trying tests are the ones where it's our own friends who test us. Whether it be an omission of fact, an act that completely disregards anything you have together or the way you treat the other. These things, I have learnt the hard way, can hurt. but we get on with them, we move upwards and we learn, rather sadly, to perhaps not give as much to people. Wait for them to give maybe? Be more distant?
These things trouble me and your thoughts are welcome because this idea goes against everything that makes me...well, me.
Monday, 17 August 2009
Mondays
There is debate in offices across the world as to which is the worst day to be at work. Many argue it is Mondays. You've had the weekend off to relax and do those things you like to do...whatever that is!
I would agree. In some ways. I think there are few of us who like getting up on a Monday morning and have to drag ourselves into work. However, I think it's Tuesdays that are the worst! Mondays are a day you can get away with 'catching up on your emails' and such like. On tuesday you're actually expected to work and, if you're anythign like me, the night out you have on Monday night doesn't help this!
Another bad day is Friday! You have that Friday feeling. It's the weekend! But...Fridays DRAG! You don't feel like you should be at work. Especially if every Friday is dress-down day...you're in your actual clothes for God's sake...not a good feeling while you wait for 5pm...which is seemingly a week away! or at least it may as well be!
As you can tell I'm not happy to be at work!
Have a good week ladies and gentlemen...only 34hours, 3 minutes, and 27seconds of working time left until the weekend! ENJOY!
I would agree. In some ways. I think there are few of us who like getting up on a Monday morning and have to drag ourselves into work. However, I think it's Tuesdays that are the worst! Mondays are a day you can get away with 'catching up on your emails' and such like. On tuesday you're actually expected to work and, if you're anythign like me, the night out you have on Monday night doesn't help this!
Another bad day is Friday! You have that Friday feeling. It's the weekend! But...Fridays DRAG! You don't feel like you should be at work. Especially if every Friday is dress-down day...you're in your actual clothes for God's sake...not a good feeling while you wait for 5pm...which is seemingly a week away! or at least it may as well be!
As you can tell I'm not happy to be at work!
Have a good week ladies and gentlemen...only 34hours, 3 minutes, and 27seconds of working time left until the weekend! ENJOY!
Friday, 14 August 2009
Waiting...
It seems this is what I'm good at. There is always something that I am waiting for. If you think about it this is what we're all good at.
Have you ever noticed on holiday that people from the British Isles and Ireland are the only ones who actually stand in line and wait?! I can only summise that we are the most polite and patient people in the world.
I am waiting for a great number of things. Least of all my Visa for working in the United States, my lottery numbers, and 'the one'! I think the latter may take a while...answers on a postcard! As for the visa I have a date I can look to: 15th September 2009. That said, the last time I had a date to look to it was in April and I got the head-staggers and booked a leaving-party...I'm STILL here! But, with my Attorney working hard we shall see. You never know, I might get there yet! As for my lottery numbers: 7, 11, 23, 38, 45, and 49...let's give them a go in the old EuroMillions tonight!
Have you ever noticed on holiday that people from the British Isles and Ireland are the only ones who actually stand in line and wait?! I can only summise that we are the most polite and patient people in the world.
I am waiting for a great number of things. Least of all my Visa for working in the United States, my lottery numbers, and 'the one'! I think the latter may take a while...answers on a postcard! As for the visa I have a date I can look to: 15th September 2009. That said, the last time I had a date to look to it was in April and I got the head-staggers and booked a leaving-party...I'm STILL here! But, with my Attorney working hard we shall see. You never know, I might get there yet! As for my lottery numbers: 7, 11, 23, 38, 45, and 49...let's give them a go in the old EuroMillions tonight!
Wednesday, 12 August 2009
Incompetent People
Have you ever noticed how much easier your life would be without half of your colleagues?! I mean, come on! There's not many of us who have a tough job. Most work is rooted in common sense, especially office based work. It's all processes and admin largely. Why does it have to become so hard?!
Apparently today it will be annouced that the unemployment in the country is now at the 2.4m figure. But, according to the government, it shouldn't be this way. There is 400,000 jobs out there! Yes, minister. This may be true but, there's 2.4m people applying for the bloody things! Again, that's not exactly hard to see! Is it?!
There's not that many jobs with the old job satisfaction either. I mean, unless you're building fighter jets, curing cancer, or paid ridiculously well...it's just a job. 9/10 jobs pay CRAP!
Take my job for example. I work in Facilities. This is a varied and often pressured job. However, it's either one extreme or the other!
Is it any wonder I can't get out of bed in the morning?!
Apparently today it will be annouced that the unemployment in the country is now at the 2.4m figure. But, according to the government, it shouldn't be this way. There is 400,000 jobs out there! Yes, minister. This may be true but, there's 2.4m people applying for the bloody things! Again, that's not exactly hard to see! Is it?!
There's not that many jobs with the old job satisfaction either. I mean, unless you're building fighter jets, curing cancer, or paid ridiculously well...it's just a job. 9/10 jobs pay CRAP!
Take my job for example. I work in Facilities. This is a varied and often pressured job. However, it's either one extreme or the other!
Is it any wonder I can't get out of bed in the morning?!
Tuesday, 11 August 2009
The Wedding continued...
So, where were we? Oh, yes. The SPEECHES! The Father of the Bride spoke lovingly about his beautiful daughter and welcomed 'Our Kid' with open arms. The Groom spoke...when he wasn't choked up bless him...and it was obvious that he loves his Wife more than anything else. It was a good speech. Although he did say at one point: God, I can't stop choking up! Somebody hit me! At which point his ever-obediant best-men both stood and offered!
Now, we come to the speech everyone puts pressure on. Kev and I had been writing this for months. We practised it the mronign of the Wedding and decided it was pants. So, we winged it! It was funny, mildly offensive, and recieved well. We were compared to Morcombe and Wise which was nice. We were please with our innings and could now loosen our ties, remove our jackets, roll up our sleeves and PART...Y? Coz I gotta!
The Disco was quality. Everyone loved it! There was group dances, slow dances, all you would expect really...the babies were quality!
I think the thing that everybody enjoyed the most was how good it was to see so many family and friends. There wasn't a table you couldn't go to without someone you recognised on it.
So, the next day I went across to Lemington Spa to Macca and Alanas Wedding. It was a GORGEOUS! The music was great (Our Team representing again. Well done guys!).
Back to the hotel and a meal that night which was lovely. Then the inevitable guitar and singing session! It wouldn't be our party without it! We attracted some attention and I'm pleased to say it was a lovely lady who took my eye...anyway...back to bed at 3 and up for breakfast the next day and the trip home.
SLEEP! Thank God for SLEEP! I rested and woke on Monday at 11am. We (Pops, Steve, Kev, and I) went for a round of Golf. I came second. 7strokes behind the old man. Loved it.
So, I hope you enjoyed hearing about my wonderful weekend!
Now, we come to the speech everyone puts pressure on. Kev and I had been writing this for months. We practised it the mronign of the Wedding and decided it was pants. So, we winged it! It was funny, mildly offensive, and recieved well. We were compared to Morcombe and Wise which was nice. We were please with our innings and could now loosen our ties, remove our jackets, roll up our sleeves and PART...Y? Coz I gotta!
The Disco was quality. Everyone loved it! There was group dances, slow dances, all you would expect really...the babies were quality!
I think the thing that everybody enjoyed the most was how good it was to see so many family and friends. There wasn't a table you couldn't go to without someone you recognised on it.
So, the next day I went across to Lemington Spa to Macca and Alanas Wedding. It was a GORGEOUS! The music was great (Our Team representing again. Well done guys!).
Back to the hotel and a meal that night which was lovely. Then the inevitable guitar and singing session! It wouldn't be our party without it! We attracted some attention and I'm pleased to say it was a lovely lady who took my eye...anyway...back to bed at 3 and up for breakfast the next day and the trip home.
SLEEP! Thank God for SLEEP! I rested and woke on Monday at 11am. We (Pops, Steve, Kev, and I) went for a round of Golf. I came second. 7strokes behind the old man. Loved it.
So, I hope you enjoyed hearing about my wonderful weekend!
Weekend Fun...
This isn't going to be deep, it's not going to be meaningful, it's not going to make you think. This is an account of one of the best weekends I've ever had. ENJOY!
So, it starts on Wednesday afternoon (early weekend start!). Picked up my suit, picked up my newly fixed guitar, and got to my brother (The Groom)'s house. A good night. Chilling, talking, taking the piss, playing silly computer games, few beers. Magic. What a night!
Thursday arrived and we were up with the birds! Travel to the wonderful place they call The Briars to pick up my little brother (The 2nd Best-Man...and don't take this to mean that I am a better Best-Man or indeed a better man at all). Got home to pack, pick up the Groom and hit the road! Travel down to Shropshire and the AMAZING Albrighton Hall Hotel and Spa. Check in, a few beers (for those of us not driving..not me!) and off to Broseley for the rehearsal! An hour later and we're heading back..via McDonalds...Seámus was there so that's not a huge surprise! Then we started on the beer...Bed at 3am on the morning of the Wedding...
Friday dawns and we were all up. The Best-Men (on orders from the Grooms Mother) wake the Groom and get him fed. Then to the Pool and Jacuzzi to try and drown him a little. He puts up a good fight bless him. Let's not forget He's quite scrawny now. So, suits on, Shades on, and off to the Wedding! Arriving in Broseley the nerves hit home. Marky was pacing, looking pale, and fretting over the little details (not helped by the fact that all of his ushers were late....in step the Best-Men. Disaster Averted). So, we make our way to the front and wait...and wait...and she turned up! The Babies did the walk very wel and I could see their parents and aunts, uncles and grand-parents were SO proud! Then, the curtain pulls back and there she is. Followed by a perfectly timed shoulder pat from his 2 best-men and the Groom is welling up. What a lovely service! 2 'Sister-Churches' (a lovely phrase used by Fr Mike) joined here also as the Farrel contingent brought their own Priest to the proceedings (sponsored by whatever watch he chose to wear that day..the flash git), Fr Paul. So...Mark and Louise Farrell are now married.
TO THE RECEPTION! Wonderful food, wonderful service (Seriously, my sister Donna had to take little Lukey to the loo. At which point the Maitre D instructed a waitress to remove their food and keep it warm. That's quality!), wonderful company! Then...the infamous speeches!
I now have a meeting so I will continue later....
So, it starts on Wednesday afternoon (early weekend start!). Picked up my suit, picked up my newly fixed guitar, and got to my brother (The Groom)'s house. A good night. Chilling, talking, taking the piss, playing silly computer games, few beers. Magic. What a night!
Thursday arrived and we were up with the birds! Travel to the wonderful place they call The Briars to pick up my little brother (The 2nd Best-Man...and don't take this to mean that I am a better Best-Man or indeed a better man at all). Got home to pack, pick up the Groom and hit the road! Travel down to Shropshire and the AMAZING Albrighton Hall Hotel and Spa. Check in, a few beers (for those of us not driving..not me!) and off to Broseley for the rehearsal! An hour later and we're heading back..via McDonalds...Seámus was there so that's not a huge surprise! Then we started on the beer...Bed at 3am on the morning of the Wedding...
Friday dawns and we were all up. The Best-Men (on orders from the Grooms Mother) wake the Groom and get him fed. Then to the Pool and Jacuzzi to try and drown him a little. He puts up a good fight bless him. Let's not forget He's quite scrawny now. So, suits on, Shades on, and off to the Wedding! Arriving in Broseley the nerves hit home. Marky was pacing, looking pale, and fretting over the little details (not helped by the fact that all of his ushers were late....in step the Best-Men. Disaster Averted). So, we make our way to the front and wait...and wait...and she turned up! The Babies did the walk very wel and I could see their parents and aunts, uncles and grand-parents were SO proud! Then, the curtain pulls back and there she is. Followed by a perfectly timed shoulder pat from his 2 best-men and the Groom is welling up. What a lovely service! 2 'Sister-Churches' (a lovely phrase used by Fr Mike) joined here also as the Farrel contingent brought their own Priest to the proceedings (sponsored by whatever watch he chose to wear that day..the flash git), Fr Paul. So...Mark and Louise Farrell are now married.
TO THE RECEPTION! Wonderful food, wonderful service (Seriously, my sister Donna had to take little Lukey to the loo. At which point the Maitre D instructed a waitress to remove their food and keep it warm. That's quality!), wonderful company! Then...the infamous speeches!
I now have a meeting so I will continue later....
Wednesday, 5 August 2009
Love and Marriage...
I find myself thinking of the eternal bond! Or at least that's what it used to be. I went to the first of 3 weddings I have this summer on Sunday and I found myself very interested in the vows. It's one of the last lines. Either: Till death do us part ot till death parts us. Do people realise what they are saying? It seems not.
Our airwaves are covered with these 'reality programmes' (which aren't very realistic I might add!) and there is one called 4 weddings. These people, and indeed our society, looks upon the SACRAMENT of marriage as a party, a show, a chance to get the dress and have the big party with the food and free drink. It's a sham.
The people I will talk about will remain nameless although I am sure they know who they are.
2 of my closest friends got married recently and it really made me think. They did it for themselves. No one else. We all found out after the event. The happiness that eminated from them was amazing to behold. There was no pressure. No stress about the seating plan, the venue, the cake, the dress. It was a marriage, in my opinion for the right reasons. And I was blown away by this.
Don't get me wrong. I LOVE a good wedding! In fact I am looking forward to the 2 I will be part of this weekend (not mine I hasten to add). Again these are 2 weddings that are completely different but, knowing the people who are giving their lives to each other I know they will be amazing. I can't wait for them! One I know is going to be a grand event!!
I hope you don't think I am against marriage. Quite the opposite in fact. I love marriage and everything about it. I look forward to the day when I get married. What I am against is the fact that people 'nowadays' seem to marry for the spectacle, not the love and commitment. I am happy to say that all of the weddings I have experienced (or not in some cases!) this year have and will be for Love and commitment. Some will have the dress, the cake, and all the accoutrement, some won't. but the one factor that matters, that is obvious in all of them is love. and for that reason, I know they will all last the course.
Tuesday, 4 August 2009
Fire and Water
Have you ever watched a flame of a candle and used it to guide your thoughts?
Have you ever watched a pool of water in the rain?
The beauty of doing this is that you will never see the same thing twice. The water will ripple in ever expanding circles that look perfectly circular, the flame will dance in the breeze (even if you think there is none). These things are completely their own and yet can be altered by the simplest of input from the outside world.
It just goes to show that the smallest things, almost insignificant even, can affect a truely devestating force. Let's not forget floods and arson. Where we can use these 2 items for quiet reflection and peaceful times, a simple gust of wind can cause forest fires. Yes, water can be used to quell this beast but, what is there to stop the water?
First Attemp
Let's kick off with an apology to all my (as yet non-existent) readers! I have been known to ramble, to say things as they pop into my head and well...I can be SO annoying it hurts. However, I feel that this is my new space to say things I couldn't on certain networks and to feel free to share my theories and beliefs with those who are interested enough to find me!
I would like to take this opportunity to thank my sponsor and mentor (you know who you are)!
So, for today allow me to start with drizzle. It is in it's simplicity depressing and in someways rather beautiful. I guess this opens us up to the complexities of how we percieve our own world and how we react to situations.
I work with a lady we'll call Sharon for this exercise who oftens marvels at my positive outlook on most things. I simple believe that we owe our creator (in whatever form you believe it takes) a debt of gratitude and as (we hear this little gem in a new film about subway hostage takingin NY) God doesn't take cash, we should like life abundantly (another film reference but one I have taken to my heart).
So people, look out of your window. If you see drizzle try to smile. After all, without this weather our plant-life would wither and die. A dessert surrounding us would be worse than this I think...
I would like to take this opportunity to thank my sponsor and mentor (you know who you are)!
So, for today allow me to start with drizzle. It is in it's simplicity depressing and in someways rather beautiful. I guess this opens us up to the complexities of how we percieve our own world and how we react to situations.
I work with a lady we'll call Sharon for this exercise who oftens marvels at my positive outlook on most things. I simple believe that we owe our creator (in whatever form you believe it takes) a debt of gratitude and as (we hear this little gem in a new film about subway hostage takingin NY) God doesn't take cash, we should like life abundantly (another film reference but one I have taken to my heart).
So people, look out of your window. If you see drizzle try to smile. After all, without this weather our plant-life would wither and die. A dessert surrounding us would be worse than this I think...
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