It's been over a week since my last BLOG! This is quite frankly, un-acceptable! So I am taking a well earned break from the manual labour I have been engaged in to write a little something...
I've been trying very hard recently to focus on other people and try an help them in the way they help me without knowing it. Be it moral support, words of advice, a lift here and there. The usual matey stuff that seems insignificant but I know means a lot even if it's only a little.
In doing this I have discovered a few things about the people I have tried to help. They all react differently. To some it as amazing. "This person (me) is willing to do the little things that help...and boy, do they help!" Others have taken advice and it's not panned out so graciously thank and try to deal with repercussions and their feelings alone. The ones...or one in actual fact that has troubled me is the one about whom I am going to write.
The worst feeling I have experienced recently is close to rejection really. Nothing as major or defined as that though. Have you ever tried to do anything for someone you care a great deal about and been ignored? Have you ever dropped everything and gone to them because they asked? Have you ever been left to the side because something or someone else has come along? Have you ever felt second best ALL of the time?
This person has made me feel like that...on many occasions. I've vowed a few times now (one of my readers can vouch for that) to forget it. Leave this person to their own devices...I struggle to be honest. But now I feel like a fool. I've still tried recently. I'm concerned about the person...I offer help, I offer company...I get no response or a simple: "Thanks."
I don't know what to do with it anymore and advice is welcome from any of you. Even you who know about which I speak...even if it's the same advice I've heard before!
Randomness in my BLOGs remains. But at least I got a chance to do one.
Guys, I've missed you even if you haven't missed me. It's good to get it out. Have a great weekend...even if you have to work!
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