Thoughts

I have had so many since my last post!

Don't worry though, I will not list them all, that would be impossible. I want to share some of the feelings and thoughts I've had this past week.

Wednesday October 12th 2011 was the day my Grannie died. Being in the US I found out via a Skype chat with my Old Man. Well, actually I found out through a WhatsApp message from him. It said: Call me. That was it. My Pops doesn't talk much ESPECIALLY through text. When I saw this I knew my Grannie had gone.

My world felt like it was crashing. Made worse by the fact I knew I couldn't be there for the funeral. I had to say goodbye from 5000 miles away. Not an easy thing to do by any stretch of the imagination.

I am blessed enough to have some amazing friends here in SF. They really rallied round and actually knew exactly what I would have wanted from them and needed them to do for me (generally give me words of support and keep certain people away from me!). That was Wednesday. A flood of emails, texts, phone calls, facebook messages. It actually surprised me, I loved it.

Thursday saw my hungover self rise at 6.30am to prepare for my 4 day retreat with our 8th Grade. Again, this was something I am glad for. A distraction? A chance to be on retreat myself? A getaway? YES! I had a hard weekend that helped me more than I could have known. My boss, the High School team, the 8th Graders themselves; they all helped me through it. I got to talk about my Grannie, I had space to think, I had things to distract me, and I had reconciliation with the guilt I felt. Literally. I went to reconciliation with my boss and gave my guilt for not being at the funeral to God. I felt a weight lifted.

At the end of the retreat I was honoured to have Mass said for my Grannie. She would have loved that, an incredibly devout and loving woman. I confess I nearly cried and I choked up, as they say. But I had reassuring smiles from the seniors, and strong 'proper' hugs.

My life is one I often marvel at. It seems no matter what is thrown at me, my situation, my job, my friends seem to help more than they probably know themselves.

For that I am thankful.

These are my thoughts. Thank you for reading them.